Today, I miss my younger sister Jade.
When we were growing up, our rooms were right across from each other. She was never too far away.
When it was time for everyone to go off to college, I stayed behind, commuting to a nearby University, while she went to one a few hours away.
This was the first time we’d really been apart. It was a pivotal part in my young life. My siblings going off to University was when I truly began to realize the impermanence of life.
Of course, we’d still visit each other but things had changed. Our lives were evolving in different directions.
When I left the country for a few years, we said our goodbyes. We were already living at a distance from our previous endeavors.
Finally, I came back from my adventures abroad and decided to settle back down in the USA.
We met infrequently for the next two years.
A couple of years ago, I (pregnant with baby and with my husband) moved back to Virginia to be close to my parents.
However, this time, it was Jade’s turn to have extended adventures abroad. Away she went and I wished her well.
But that doesn’t stop me from missing her today. So, I wanted to write a little something about her in my little Adventurer Diary:
I haven’t always been a good sister to you. But I have to say, you’ve always been a good sister to me.
Supportive and loving.
In your own way, you have always been there for me when I needed you.
When I was down and out, you helped bring me back to life. Giving me advice and some tough love. You helped to guide me out of the darkness when I was running out of places to turn.
Now, here we are. Far apart. So far away from the place that we started.
That short step to your room, now oceans away.
I don’t know when I’ll be able to hug you again but I do hope that I will be able to soon.
Sometimes, I see you in my dreams. There we share time together.
It’s funny how everything changes. Nothing stays the same.
I was so lucky to grow up with you.
Now, we’re far apart and it makes me sad. But just as you loved me enough to set me free to explore the world, I, too, must set you free. To be happy, to live your own life.
Today, my heart is broken. But, at the same time, happy because you’re happy.
I love you, little Jade. I hope to see you again soon. ❤