Update About My New Adventures

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It’s amazing how things change…

It feels like just a few months ago I was in Busan, South Korea teaching ESL, eating gimbap and hiking in the mountains. In actuality, It’s been almost 2 years since I moved from South Korea to California to be with my then fiance’ and now husband.

Life is a grand adventure. Sometimes the adventure is fun, scary, crazy, hectic, chaotic, boring, surprising and everything else in between. However, that’s precisely what an adventure is; something unpredictable.

I left Virginia in 2013 to embark on a new chapter of my life: teaching ESL in Indonesia. With that journey, my entire world was flipped upside down and forced me to do a lot of self-reflection. I spent a lot of time alone. It was a transformational time in my life.

In Indonesia, I hit my rock bottom and learned how to dust myself off and pick myself back up.

In Indonesia, I also learned how to meditate, teach young children, self-reflect, be humble, quit drinking, stopped partying, tried out vegetarianism, experimented with veganism, and became celibate.

Indonesia was a whirlwind of an experience. I’d love to share the whole story with you one day.

***Before I posted another pretty picture of a flower or mountain range, I felt it was best to let you know about this new adventure in my life. The journey of a new family.

I got married to the man I love, changed my last name, and now, we’re expecting our first child. Her name’s Rose.

I’m scared, elated, overwhelmed, and everything else…

I’ve decided to embark on the adventure that motherhood brings. With all of its joys, struggles, heartaches, and laughs, here I go… into a place I’ve never been before.

And Rose, She will be loved. Her mother and father are excited for her arrival. There’s so much to teach her. There’s so much for her to teach us.

In this life, if we’re lucky, we wake up to another day, and within the new, we have the opportunity to be better than we were the previous day. This is my understanding of it. We fall, we get back up. Our only choice is to keep moving forward. The saying goes, fall down 8 times pick yourself up 9. Keep moving forward. I believe that quitting isn’t an option…life can be excruciating for us all at times… but it can also be beyond amazing if you allow it.

So, I’m ready for the beyond amazing adventure…and I’m looking forward to sharing some of the experiences with you along the way.

Thanks for reading.

Love, Leslie

 

 

 

 

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In observance of the movement

Experiencing the calm within the storm

Unhinging and reattachment

Chaos surrounds tranquility

All moving apart to come together

The heart beat

Expansion and contraction

Inhaling and exhaling

In essence, the rhythm of life

Picturing the wind blowing and, I, the wind

Moving through the things

Moving through each other

Breathing in, breathing out

The wind is flowing

As life flows through us

I close my eyes to picture this flow

I am the wind as my my chest expands and contracts

All combining to rhythmically keep me intune with the continuous flow of life

I, breathing in the life of things and, this form, that I am, being a part of that life of things

And with eyes closed, I see that we are all connected.

With great upheaval, can respond with silencing peace

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It was a really hard day today. The last thing I expected was to be surprised by a beautiful rainbow after it all…what a blessing.

“At its most basic reduction, the rainbow is an amalgamation of light – a perfect harmonic combination which produces a symbol of supernatural beauty, promise and enlightenment.”   ~author unknown

 

The Drawbacks of Being a Traveler

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As I sit here alone,

The traveler

I’m taught a valuable lesson

And mother,

Please forgive me!

As I sit here alone,

I’m thinking of you

As you prepare yourself for the funeral of your mother,

My grandmother

I won’t be there,

Everyone else will be

But I won’t

My eyes grow tired of supporting the rivers that pour from them

I have felt alone before but this time,

something feels different

I have concluded that this time,

It’s not aloneness that I feel, but desperation

I’m desperate

The traveler,

That has just learned that

Travel,

Just like anything else,

Has its costs:

Just as I have had the courage to travel to Southeast Asia alone, it’s now time for me to also have the courage to accept the utterly painful, desperation that I feel right now, during this time of grieving in the absence of family