The Drawbacks of Being a Traveler

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As I sit here alone,

The traveler

I’m taught a valuable lesson

And mother,

Please forgive me!

As I sit here alone,

I’m thinking of you

As you prepare yourself for the funeral of your mother,

My grandmother

I won’t be there,

Everyone else will be

But I won’t

My eyes grow tired of supporting the rivers that pour from them

I have felt alone before but this time,

something feels different

I have concluded that this time,

It’s not aloneness that I feel, but desperation

I’m desperate

The traveler,

That has just learned that

Travel,

Just like anything else,

Has its costs:

Just as I have had the courage to travel to Southeast Asia alone, it’s now time for me to also have the courage to accept the utterly painful, desperation that I feel right now, during this time of grieving in the absence of family

4 thoughts on “The Drawbacks of Being a Traveler

  1. Sorry to hear of your loss. It isn’t easy losing love ones. I lost my grandmother and stepfather four months a part back in 2013 while living here in Korea. I didn’t attend either of their funerals. I wrote about this, that is, how as an expat, death is the one thing you really aren’t prepared to deal with while away.

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