Now I lay me down to sleep
but sleep never comes
uncertainty settles in
it tastes like…
reality becomes available
screaming unwanted conclusions
I want for my happiness
I’m contemplating living worlds away…
My heart moans for this new earth
…complaining like a spoiled, sulking child…
I miss my family
I miss the backyard
to drive my car
to hang out with my friends
to smell American soil
to ingest American food
the wind speaks differently there
and I’m here
I’m not the same
what am I going to do now?
The necessity for trust is stronger than ever
finding solace in meditation and inventive questions
…tell me why I left again…
I needed answers
I’m receiving answers
how will I reconnect to what I once called home?
I am beginning to conclude that I am about to discover that I have found a new definition for the past idea of home
and I pacify my uncertainties with an old friend
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On January 7, 2014, I conducted a confidence workshop. It went really well! I am grateful to all who attended.
This is the advertisement that was put up on their website (atamerica.or.id).
Also, I am waiting for the video of the session and some photos to be uploaded to their facebook page.
If you find ’em before me, let me know and I will post them on my blog: atamerica (fb).
My companion and I had taken a train back from Surabaya. This was the food option…